My Vows to Jesus

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I feel a little uncomfortable sharing this with you all but ehn…. Whatever!!

So I have been studying the book of Luke for a while now and I try as much as possible to read a chapter a day and just meditate and listen to God and see what he is saying to me through this book. Well chapter 14 verse 34-35 was very overwhelming but in a good way.

Luke 14:34-35 – “Salt is good, but if salt has lost its taste, how shall its saltiness be restored? 35 It is of no use either for the soil or for the manure pile. It is thrown away. He who has ears to hear, let him hear.”

I read an ESV study bible so below each chapter they give more insight to each verses and for verses 34-35 it was “Most salt came from the Dead Sea and contained impurities (carnallite and gypsum). If not processed properly, it would have a poor taste and would worse than useless, being unusable for food and creating a disposal problem. If the conditions of discipleship are not kept, the disciples will become less than worthless”

In simple words if I claim to be a disciple of Christ but don’t allow myself to be chastised by Jesus, I am a bad salt and will eventually become less than worthless.
I had two reactions to that, the first one was dang!!!


And the second was FEAR.
I was scared that I was probably not good enough salt for him, scared that I might have thought I was letting him chastise me but in reality I wasn’t, scared of becoming less than worthless to my savior, scared that I was too impure for him, scared that I was too imperfect to be loved by him, scared that I was not worthy of his love and above all I was scared that I didn’t even deserve to be called his bride.

But the more I felt this way, the more his love overwhelmed me and I cried and begged him to please forgive me and come into my heart and remove any and everything that is not of him so that I could at least feel a little deserving of him. You see at that moment I thought I could do it with my power, my push, my strength but he made me realize that he loved even in all of my filthiness and that I was well deserving of his unending, unconditional love and the best part I did not need to work for it, earn it or beg for it. And so this lead to my vows.

For better and for worse, in good and bad, through the rough and great times, in purity and in impurity, in perfection and in imperfection, when I love him and when I don’t, in sickness and in health, I will follow you till death brings us together.
And no this is no license for me to keep living my life whichever way I please, its instead a reassurance that a perfect God is madly in love with this imperfect girl and the least I can do is give him back my love, till we met.

I hope this blessed or encouraged you. Till next time. Peace.

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