SPIRITUAL FATIGUE

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While talking with my sisterhood I was finally able to articulate this feeling I had carried for months. Although I wasn’t completely clueless to how I felt, the gift of being able to fully capture it in words was really liberating. THERE IT IS! Though still fatigued, I’m once again reminded:


JUDE 24 - Now to him who is able TO KEEP you(me) from stumbling and to present you(me) blameless before the presence of his glory with great joy.


So if Jesus does the keeping and presenting which is basically all the heavy lifting, why then is my spirit man so fatigued? Better put what nurtured seed turned into a tree is producing this fruit, fatigue? 


Moments of introspection led me to weariness. Weariness birthed from the struggles that come with living in this world but specifically the one birthed from the reality of my flesh. I’m not oblivious to the weakness and depth of wickedness that my flesh is capable of but I’m also aware that the same spirit that raised Jesus from the dead lives inside me and gives strength to my mortal body (Romans 8:11) yet, my flesh prevailed these past months. The adversity of my flesh rose up against me and prevailed because my strength was pretty much nonexistent (Proverbs 24:10). I relied on my strength and not on that of the one that KEEPS me. My gaze was on the wrong image and I was drinking from the wrong well.


ISAIAH 40:29-31

  • He gives power to the faint, and to him who has no might he increases strength. Even youths shall faint and be weary, and young men shall fall exhausted; but they who wait for the Lord shall renew their strength; they shall mount up with wings like eagles; they shall run and not be weary; they shall walk and not faint.


If I could KEEP myself I wouldn’t have needed a savior that strengthens. What now? Aside from waiting on the Lord, JUDE 20 - “But you, beloved, building yourselves up in your most holy faith and praying in the Holy Spirit”. The direction the Holy Spirit is leading me is clear. The muscle that needs to be strengthened in the process of waiting and building is ENDURANCE. And enduring is not impossible because the Holy Spirit strengthens my mortal body. If Jesus endured in prayer I CAN ENDURE (Matthew 26:36-46). The battle over my flesh is one Jesus already won I just need to walk in that victory.


If you’re currently going through spiritual fatigue, I hope this encouraged you as it did me. 


PEACE. 


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